Every summer, in Japan, there is a breaking point when you suddenly realize it’s HUMID and that the humidity isn’t going away. The humidity always seems to seep in overnight, undetected. One day you just wake up and feel like, “Where the hell did the humidity come from?”
Well, folks… the humidity is here to stay. Running outside in the middle of the day is impossible for me. I can’t breathe without feeling like I’m suffocating from the moisture in the air. So it’s wake up and run at 6 AM or don’t run… starting tomorrow.
So, onto the title of this post. Who’s serving who?
This post was inspired by the video embedded in this GPP post. I’ve been feeling really bogged down lately spiritually, physically, and emotionally. I feel like there’s this mental block in my way.
I haven’t regularly lifted or done anything except run in weeks. I haven’t been eating very well or taking great care of myself either, truth be told. Where did all my enthusiasm for lifting and weight loss go?
I love exercise. I do. But I love exercise because of the way it affects my life outside of the gym, not the way it makes me look. Looking good (for me) is not a strong enough motivator to devote daily time to working out. In the last 2 months I’ve gotten my priorities twisted and forgot that I do not serve exercise, but rather exercise is to serve me outside of the gym. I exercise (and encourage others to do so, too) so that I can lead my best and most fulfilling life outside of the gym walls.
It’s not about what I look like and when I make it about my appearance I quickly lose interest in everything except running. Running is never about weight loss, looking good, or getting skinny for me… I run because it makes me feel strong and I love it. I need to make that mental switch to other activities, too.
I exercise because it affords me these benefits:
- stress relief
- better relationship with my husband
- mentally focused
- mood booster
- pushes me into a place where I’m ready to be close to God
There are obvious physical benefits that naturally come along with eating well and exercising regularly, but I don’t want that to be the focus of my life or my exercise.
So, who’s serving who? Starting today I’m flipping it back to having my exercise serve me outside the gym. I will live my life and be healthy, but I won’t be a slave to exercise. That is not health.